Numb

Numb

So the last time you saw us enjoying the Sun the snow and the storms in Scotland the plan was always to head south get to the bottom of Europe and enjoy those warm winter sunny days and the seaside and actually catch up with our friends who we’ve not seen since being in

Scotland in the snow em and Lou like I say that was the plan anyway but before we could do that Mandy needed to finish some exams at a new job so we all know that isn’t a problem for Mandy she can do anything so the plan

Was to head south and get on the ferry well that was the plan but then something cropped up that Mandy needed to go and get checked out in hospital the hospital said that they couldn’t see anything that was concerning we explained that we’re ready to go on our

Trip go head south and they said go ahead and we’ll ring you if we need you to come back for any more tests so we headed back to the ferry to head down South to Portugal to the sun and the Sea The Sea looks okay um there is a breeze it

Doesn’t look flat calm it looks okay so I’m hoping for an okay Crossing and then it was just bombing down the motorways to get South as fast as we possibly could there was a little bit of a glitch on the way though and that was one of the cars that passed me flicked

Something up and smash my wind screen but that wasn’t going to stop our trip and it wasn’t going to stop us heading to the Sun and theno joying this Lovely weather we started to see so the miles kept on building and the sun kept on Shining and the temperature kept on

Rising and before you know it we’ made it all the way down to Portugal and finally met up with em and Lou well we finally made it to Portugal um it’s been a day and a little bit since we got here um so got her yesterday obviously instantly met up

With em and live camp Vibe and basically caught up on everything um went out for a meal you know usual things catch up a what around listen to what they’ve been up to and obviously what we’ve been doing and things like that um and uh if you’ve been following Mandy’s Vlog um

Mandy has recently been to hospital to have some tests done and this morning she had a call about the results for those tests um but yeah we’ve actually now got to go straight back to the UK um for Mandy to have a few more tests and for um for treatment for cancer

So not quite the trip we thought um both still a bit sort of Numb by the news and um but we’ve been through a lot over the last couple of years and this isn’t going to phase us we’ll just cope with it and do what we can make the most of

It and um yeah thanks to modern medicine um you know cancer treatment is really good and the you know the rate that people um are cancer free in Mission um goes up every year so there’s always hope and um yeah that’s what we’re just going to concentrate on for now yeah

Mand is still really obviously upset and we’re both like I say a little bit numb from what’s uh happened this morning the news um I would like to say as well I’ll say it to them but say it as well um em and L from camper Vibe they’ve been absolutely

Lovely um really supportive and you know listening to everything um even paid for a meal we went out for this afternoon and that so yeah um having friends around and family and everything um is going to be um you know important for the coming weeks and months um just to

Get that sort of support and um you know help or whatever we need so one of my biggest worries overthinking as usual with everything um is that I know that some of you will um maybe be a bit upset that I’ve not told you personally about all of

This um as you can imagine there’s been it’s been so much going on and so so many people have I’ve had to tell that it’s been exhausting um and uh I’ve been I don’t know if my heart can take it you know doing all of these phone calls and

Things so um I hope you can understand that if you’ve not had a personal message and you were expecting one um but yeah here’s all the details anyway and you know where I am so look okay so it’s been a few days now um in fact it was Thursday we got the phone

Call today is Monday and we’re um about a 30ish the way up France now U making our way back and um bit of an update we had a Hospital appointment for is it a CT scan isn’t it yeah I’ve got my CT scan appointment through um I’ve not had anything about

The MRI so we’re thinking it might have been a like a one siiz fitell appointment where they’ll do them both in one day so um can’t find a number for CT to call them back but um we figure that hopefully they’ll get it sorted out or whatever yeah the state of play is

Obviously um had a few days to think about it and um it’s not been a fun few days for sure it’s uh we’re kind of going through all the bits cuz it’s still a whole lot we don’t know there’s um which is good and bad I think the worst case

Scenario um and the thing that’s probably causing the most problem is that um they had to tell us over the phone yeah um which is obviously um it’s good that they did so we can get back and get everything looked at but yeah they apologize so

Much for having to do it over the phone it’s like we really never do this we never do this over the phone but it was the only way to get me back back um still a little bit angry um probably irrationally angry but it’s frustrating with that the first

Consultant who told John that she’ see nothing concerning yet while she said that she was rushing through these to get them back in a week instead of six weeks so yeah cuz we were thinking that they’d get back in touch with us in 6 weeks and you know then we’d have another

Appointment which will possibly be in 4 weeks or 6 weeks time if indeed there was anything else I mean they were checking for all sorts of things it wasn’t just the big seed that they were looking for no they were checking for p they were checking for all all sorts of

Things that could cause this and they’d already found uh the cervical erosion which is a real big thing for bleeding when you shouldn’t be so it kind of made sense didn’t it and the fact that I’ve been there for a long time yeah didn’t it didn’t make because feel like oh

Something new and different there yeah it made us feel that okay all right well that’s done then they just cized it already and um and that’s that because I mean I had that when I was pregnant for goodness sake and that’s 30 years ago so you know it’s

Like I don’t know I’ve got to stop focusing on that cuz it’s that point of frustration cuz the only difference that that would have made yeah is the fact that we wouldn’t have spent a fortune yeah we wouldn’t have spent two and a half Grand getting down to the bottom of

Portugal and way back we wouldn’t have spent it in in a week and a half yeah I mean it’s literally like almost a whole budget really isn’t it cuz the rest of everything else was just little bits of campsites and chilling out and bits of driving and it’s the whole biggest chunk

Of of travel money um of course it don’t matter it’s just money no no in the in the scheme of things it’s it is just money but it’s just unfortunate that it happened this way that yeah you know if if she had to give us any indication

That oh just hang around for a couple of weeks I’m just going to rush this one through yeah I’ve seen something that might be looking in further so I’m going to rush these through so if you could hang around two weeks or something yeah yeah cuz we told them what were were

Doing and why you know it’s not like um there was anything that was um set in stone about anything you know it wasn’t they weren’t giving the impression that it was unchangeable that that was it so but anyway that’s the I think it’s easy

To come back to that to be the thing to be angry at regardless of the fact that I should be angry at cancer in general um whether I should be angry at all I keep I keep I mean I’m trying not to Google things you’ll be my Google filter

Which is not quite Fair on you yeah but I I I’ve been Googling things um to try try and um prepare myself or um to understand what your needs are and what you might going through and all that kind of stuff um and then in a hope to stop you worrying

Cuz I know it’s stupid because you AR going to worry but you’ve been talking about the fact that every new a or pain you’re thinking is that it yeah and obviously I’ve been able to go through certain symptoms and say no that’s not typical although anything could be we

Don’t know the extent of it yet and this is I think the the terminology and the wording and their complete and utter seriousness on the phone is was continually scaring me cuz it was just like no no this is Advanced you need to come back and they did stay the word

Serious a few times they so and it’s like we need to get you back we need to CT your chest we need to or TTR or MRI yeah your chest and what we’re looking at is operation Radio th CH therapy um but we’re going to have to get the test

Results first so it’s all been laid out like that like it is according to them yeah they’ve pretty much said um it’s going to be one of two things or one of three options or whatever but until until the point in time when’ had the test yeah you’ve got the tests and

All the doctors have looked at it and then obviously then we need to have a chat with them about what options available so but problem biggest problem I’ve got is I feel fine I feel like I did before apart from I’m actually not bleeding now they’ve cter eyes that bleming cical

Erosion um and I feel fine I mean they mention about scaning my chest but we’ve been walking up and down Hills and stuff I I I mean I’m a slightly overweight middle-aged woman I get slight you know I get a little bit out of breath but there’s nothing there’s no wheezing or

Anything like that no I don’t feel anything but then like my hips hurt and I’m like oh my God my hips are hurting I wonder if that’s got anything to do with it and then I think I’ve been sat driving how many thousands of miles have

We driven in in the space of two weeks in the space of two weeks we’ve basically driven all the way to the bottom of Portugal and had two nights where we kind of like relaxed don’t lose a lot and then literally driven all the

Way back again so yeah um not only is it not good for your state of mind it’s certainly not good for your body or anything just to be sat here even people the fittest of people would probably be getting up with all the aches and pains

And things after stuff like that so it’s very difficult to to not think everything is to do with that every little thing you know I’ve got an itch on my neck or is it skin is it you know I’ve got a little bit of a headache because I’ve not been drinking

Enough water you know I’ve got I’ve got a bad belly because I’m panicking so much all the time or do that mean it’s in me bowel then M you know literally it’s not stopping and it’s exhausting but this is one of the reasons why we want to get back we want

To get back so we’re not putting ourselves through this we want to get back so that um we stopped in one place um uh see our daughter and then just make sure that we’re ready um to you know speak to the hospital and go through the

Tests and relax isn’t the right word but just to just have nothing else to do to sit around as awful as it’s going to sound but to sit around without worrying about making it back and driving back and spending money on fuel that’s just freaking being burnt just to get back

And everything so um and and the safety side of things cuz I think I think there’s been times when we’ve we’ve had to stop because we’ve been so tired cuz we’re not sleeping no and um it’s you know you know when you should stop driving you know that and uh

And that’s it and then it’s an internal battle then it’s just like well I’ve got to get back I’ve got to get back but I can’t do it if it’s unsafe for either of us no you know CU otherwise what’s the point you know you want to get back in

One piece so they can make sure that you get the best chance of remaining in one piece yeah we both just need to get back um and then just deal with it um but I do want to say two thank yous um speaking of the getting back um one of

Our friends and his subscriber Steve made an offer of um that we could just fly money back and he drive her van back oh I can’t believe it he’s literally just come back from France yeah and said that I could leave my van at his place

In Spain and he would fly back out again and drive my van back thank you Steve that was lots of crying for me because that was so kind um but then I wouldn’t be there yeah so that I I as selfish as it is but I want to be with Mandy I want

To obviously um yeah yeah um and the other than you was to um Emily yeah who yeah it was a difficult time to get that kind of information I understand why the hospital did it um but at least em were there to talk to us and give us a hug

And stuff and talk through options and and take say take the piss not take the piss out of that but you know still try and lighten the light the mood yeah and um and try their best as as their lovely selves can to make us feel better so yeah thank you

Too but um for now we’re going to get back in the Vans and um head to cal um get a ferry as soon as we can um go see our daughter and and just go through each day as it is um and at least know that we’re 20

Minutes away from the Hospital yeah and that we are somewhere where or where people are yeah who we know we can um fall back on a little bit yeah and also somewhere where it’s easy for us to be with the V and do whatever it’s going to it’s like a second home in

It so yeah it’s just less stress and as awful as that sounds you know you shouldn’t be stressing or you you should be thinking about this the right now neither of us need stress particularly Mandy cuz it’s also proven to be one thing that can cause all sorts of other issues so

Yeah um yeah there’s nothing really um to say now we need to wait for these tests yeah and um Mandy is going to carry on talking about in videos and um obviously go follow Mandy and catch up there cuz it’s uh I’ve already mentioned that

I’ve had the tests and each bit of going back because I think it’s really important I think it’s important that no offense to all the fellas I know you go through your own things as well but as far as this kind of thing the reproductive nature of

Things with menopause and trying to get smears if you’re not in in one place at the same time and um and all the different things it’s it’s important to share this kind of thing because it could be the bit of information that makes you go get checked out and makes a

Big difference to your life too so it’s not a big old thing I’m not on the March trying to fix things for everybody but this is just me and it’s what I’ve been doing since I started my channel so I don’t intend to stop anytime soon so I’ll come along with me

And the weird thing is is if menopause somehow masks some of the symptoms of cervical cancer then that needs to be made people aware of that as well yeah absolutely how flipping I’ve always Been so this is this is what’s happening on a daily basis now is that we’ll be all Bullit and get through the day and then I think it’s just a big shock yeah I think I think it’s just a massive a massive shock what we’ll do with it yep going kick his

Ass and then some right so um yeah we’ll let you know when we know more and Mandy will obviously let you know on her Channel as well and um yeah we’ll um we’ll catch you soon take care folks see you later

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